Kissed : The Beginning (Chapter 15)Chapter 15 : Cold War
Magnus didn’t want to meet Alec’s pitying glance in the mirror. He had had enough pity for ten lifetimes. He hated it. This was one of the main reason he never mentioned his past. This and the fact that it meant too much, implied too much trust that he didn’t like to give. He learned early in his life to don’t trust easily. But... this was Alec.
The warlock sighed deeply, closed his eyes for a few seconds and opened them again, finally meeting the startling blue orbs, that were full of... compassion? Of course, it was so Alec. Magnus was a whirlwind of emotions, he was still angry but softened by Alec’s gentle gaze lingering on him now. He was also dealing with the remnants of his guilt from last night; obviously Alec didn’t remember the odd way he felt asleep and Magnus was fighting with himself about telling his lover what he had done or not. This was all very confusing. Most of all, he was very frustrated
Kissed : The Beginning (Chapter 14)Chapter 14 : Digging In and Drawing Back
Magnus crossed the threshold of his flat, utterly depressed and exhausted. He hadn’t slept at all. Usually, just having Alec in his arms promised him the best of sleep but now, the guilt was gnawing at him, getting him restless. He looked at the old ticking clock in his living room and saw that it was 3h30 am. He thought about lifting the sleep spell off Jace but some more hours of peace were too good a bait to refuse. The spell would dissipate by itself and Magnus could sulk alone, with Chairman Meow listening to him, as he liked to believe, even if his cat couldn’t care about anything else than food and snuggles.
He shuffled to his bedroom, discarding his clothes one by one on the way. It was his habit and there was no way he would change that for an OCD Jace. He’d just have to pick them up when he awoke, Magnus was beyond caring. He reached the bed quickly and sure enough, a sleepy Chairman was awaiting
Kissed : The Beginning (Chapter 12)Chapter 12 : Past Memories and Breaking In
Magnus was mindlessly petting Chairman Meow and grudgingly counting the hours that he’d been apart from Alec. At the moment, he was to a countdown of 18 hours and it was awful. He hadn’t realized how much he needed Alec so he wouldn’t fall down in his usual cynism and anxiety. He had walked in this relationship almost backward and now he was the one running ahead. Because let’s face it... Alec got him swooning and head over heels in a record time. Only Alec could make him believe it could work, only him had taken so much place in his life that he couldn’t imagine it without him. It was scary and it had never happened to him before. Which meant that in the absence of his loved one, all the old awful thoughts were invading him. His immortality, how Alec would die eventually and not him (he winced painfully at this), how his lover still obviously had a crush on his brother and now Magnus’s prisoner, how
Kissed : The Begining (Chapter 11)Chapter 11 : Blood-Red Moon and Sour Mood
Alec was walking out of the butcher’s shop alongside Magnus into the fresh dark night, feeling more and more uneasy with their night’s business and their night altogether. Magnus knowing about a butcher who could gave out blood for a certain amount of money was already creepy but it also brought up front all of what is lover could really do, what he really was. It brought up all their differences and just how much Alec didn’t know anything about the beautiful man beside him. They had grew unusually quiet on the way to the butcher and now in the shadows of the taxi, going to the cemetary. Magnus had tried to spark up some conversation, even flirting and kissing but Alec reluctant mood had showered him down cold. Alec felt bad about being so closed off but he really couldn’t help it. For the first time he had known Magnus, he sensed the warlock’s years and magnetic presence as a direct threat to his fra
Kissed : The Beginning (Chapter 9)Chapter 9 : Clean Freak and Major Faux-Pas
Magnus was laying down on his bed, half-awake and did not welcome the impending doom full consciousness would bring him. His heart was already pulled in a quiet black hole of self-pity in his sleepy haze, he didn’t want to think about the utter sadness that would swallow him soon enough. It was easy to remember that no less than eight hours ago, he’d been happy, giddy, oblivious to his usual self doubts and cynism toward his relation with Alec. It had took him a bit to get there... it had took an established status and a silver key. He had feel so elated and hopeful at that moment, caught up with his joy and dirty mind, blazed with the challenge of teasing his lover till breakdown point. Now, for the love of all angels, he couldn’t even get it within him to have a single sensual thought. He couldn’t believe he had almost declare his love to his favorite shadowhunter, what a joke. He felt empty... and that had too
Kissed : The Beginning (Chapter 7)Chapter 7 : Steamy Bet and Trouble-Maker
I can barely make out the voice from my foggy sleep but somehow it warm me up from the inside and I can't help but fidget and slowly I open my eyelids. My sight adjust with difficulty but it's already filled with gorgeous sparkling blue. My heart swell at the sight and my consciousness come back swiftly as I feel my heart starting to race... oh gosh, this 'love' thing is getting rather embarrassing.
- "Magnus babe... I'm leaving, it's 4, I have to get back." My Alec look hesitant a bit and blushing and it's such a feast to the eye that I barely register that he just sweet-named me. "Well... you told me to wake you so... I hope you haven't change your mind now that I woke you up." He chuckles, a little nervously.
I smile, all fuzzy and putty inside, and just sit up in the bed, realizing that Alec's already up and dressed, ready to go. I feel a little disappointed as I had hoped to coax him into another make-out session before