To Keep Up The Appearances (Chapter 15)Chapter 15: An Awkward Gathering
I hadn’t felt that awkward in a very long time. Looking at my parents and sister trying to chat lightly with my boyfriend while failing at hiding how uncomfortable they were, I was yet again confirmed that my being kicked out had been a blessing in disguise. It seemed obvious now how in five years, I’d somewhat gained confidence and had grown to be more of a man than the self-hating and embarrassed of being gay teen my parents had known and well.... maybe pushed me to be. God know how they’d never helped me to feel normal and harmonious with my sexuality. I had also realized how having money had been eradicated from my day-to-day behavior. I’d never felt serene about it before (or taking advantage of it as my sister) but now I was downright inadequate. The grand dining room and the walls echoing every ushered whisper, the cold and damp feel the Lightwood Manor gave out; it was all very chilling and far from my cozy
To Keep Up The Appearances (Chapter 14)Chapter 14: A Mother’s Love
We walked through a series of pathways, passing by lines and lines of tombstone. It wasn’t until we got close to a secluded area surrounded by tall trees that Magnus left the main road. We walked through the small amount of snow as we crossed the open field. He stopped in front of a grave, a very feminine and graceful one, stretching up to the sky and mounted with a smiling angel that reminded me of the Blessed Virgin Mary holding her sacred child. It was marble white, opening its hands in offering and looking timeless. When I glanced down, I saw the epitaph.
1962 – 2008
Beloved Mother and Wife
I felt sad and somewhat intruding at the same time. My boyfriend had stayed quiet and was now staring at his mother’s grave as if it held all the answers of the world. I never saw such a serious and pained expression in his eyes. It twisted my guts upside dow
To Keep Up The Appearances (Chapter 13)Chapter 13: An Unknown Side of You
I felt warm and happy. I was barely gaining consciousness but my body was pleasantly warm and I felt someone snuggling at my side. Alexander. The onslaught of memories and heart fluttering came back with the sweet name of my lover... no. Boyfriend. Yes, Alexander is my boyfriend. At least that’s what I wanted him to be. A smile broke onto my face and my grasp tightened slightly around Alec. I shifted and nuzzled my nose in his hair, smelling his scent of mint, fresh soap and sex. Hmmm. My body was growing a bit restless while I reminded myself of how great our night had been. I felt him fidget and shuffle as if he had catch my derailing train of thought. I almost chuckled at that. He was so adorable.
I opened my eyes at the same time I felt his eyelashes tickle my chest, eager to welcome the blue depths again. I met his gaze evenly and grinned at his confused expression; seemed like my angel wasn’t a morning per
To Keep Up The Appearances (Chapter 11)Chapter 11: An Unexpected Encounter
I was a nervous wreck and I couldn’t have stopped my pacing for all the gold on Earth. I had spent the last 45 minutes dressing up and making myself as gorgeous as I could, unbelievably relieved to have the chance to appear in all my glory in front of Alec without putting up with my ‘homeless’ outfit. I was so desperate to be close to him that I was thinking about knocking him off his feet and drag him back to my place as a Cro-Magnon’s man if I had to. Of course, all this prepping had me running late and I was barely there on time. Although I had stressed out for nothing as my angel wasn’t even there yet... Would he stand me up? I shook my head, trying to contain myself... He wouldn’t do that. If he didn’t want to see me, he wouldn’t have written at all.
I was, yet again, freaking out for nothing since soon enough, my angel was walking up to me, a soft and rueful smile on his face,
To Keep Up The Appearances (Chapter 10)Chapter 10: A Way With Words
I was sitting on the concrete stairs in front of one of the many buildings of NYU, smoking a cigarette, something I hadn’t done in years, and looking as if someone had killed my little brother. Which was exactly how I felt. I was waiting for Jace to get out of his final exam, being the only one between him, Clary, Simon and Izzy who had had to present himself on December 23, which angered him to no end, rambling about inefficient teachers who couldn’t grasp the meaning of holidays. I didn’t even know how I ended up here. We had planned to meet, yes, before leaving to our ‘teenager’s party’ that had been scheduled for Christmas, without the obligations of seeing parents that my siblings and friend would face the following days. I think it was their ways of letting me know I was still part of their loving group even if I wasn’t allowed more than ten feet close to our childhood’s neighborhood. Altho
To Keep Up The Appearances (Chapter 9)Chapter 9: An Inescapable Truth
I awoke with the morning rays of light caressing my face. I was feeling warm, sated and felt arms wrapped around me while hair tickled my chest. Memories flooded and for about one minute, I was happy. Heaven had finally opened their gates and welcomed me in their embrace. But then, I came to my senses and realized I was far from worthy of this paradise.
My eyelids snapped open and I took in the sight of my beautiful lover who looked even more like an angel in his sleep. The silk curtain of his black hair brushed his delicate yet masculine face, his flush from our love making still tainting his high cheekbones, a small smile tugging at his full lips. He looked so confident and rested, glad, and all I missed was the overwhelming light of his gorgeous blue eyes. I prayed that I would still be able to see them light up at the sight of my undeserving self but I had high doubts about this. It was time to be honest.
In fact, I should have d